I recently set a goal for myself to complete 21 days of wellness focusing on physical exercise and diet. Today I completed my 5th consecutive day of being active. This morning for my "rest" day, I decided to visit PIES Yoga and drop into their Vinyasa Flow class. Unbeknownst to me, this would be a love-themed class to commemorate the essence of Valentine's day. Our instructor, Angela, began with emphasis on self-love, gratitude, and forgiveness. She guided us through a series of poses to open the heart, and ground and center our spirits. I did not realize how tight my chest was until I gave my best attempt to will my body into Camel Pose.
Being a beginner, each "flow" presented my body with a new challenge. For a moment I felt regret about never fulfilling my goal of being consistent with yoga. I refused to allow those thoughts to take over my practice so I countered them with, "I am here now. I have met my goal for today and this feels good. I am accomplished." Along my journey to better self-care I have learned that it is not enough to simply push aside negative thoughts. They will still remain lingering waiting for a perfect opportunity to come to the forefront. Instead, these thoughts must be called out and countered with more positive and healing thoughts.
To cool down and end our class, Angela guided us through meditation by asking us to visualize someone we were grateful for. To my delight, a vision of my grandmother, smiling and happy came to light. I love it when she comes into my sacred space. My grandmother made her transition when I was three years old. I still have very vivid memories of her. Throughout the years, I have grown to call and evoke her healing and nurturing gifts often. Her fortitude, dedication, and sacrifices act as guiding examples of love for me. This is why I dedicated my most recent creative work, a digital album of my poetry, to her.
I can honestly say, I haven't "celebrated" Valentine's Day in years. Today is different. Though my celebration does not involve a romantic partner, chocolate, and roses, it does involve a delicious glass of wine, a heart full of gratitude, and a spirit overflowing with love.
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Kanika: Poet. Lover of Words. One who tells the stories of the mundane and inanimate. Bearer of Light, Water, and Sky.